I want to start off this week’s post by saying thank you! Thank you for taking the time to read my blog post.  Thank you for commenting and letting me know that you can relate. When I started this blog, it was for me to share the issues of my heart in hopes that I could help one woman along the way.  It is my ministry and what makes my heart smile.  So thank you for being a part of my journey.

I have weekly conversations with my cousin who I see as a brother, and we talk about everything.  I mean everything!  But what we often do is reflect upon the lessons that life has taught us and what we learned.  This week we talked about how all of our experiences—good, bad or indifferent, defines us.  Sometimes we try to hide or forget about parts of our journey because of the pain it caused.  I’ve even heard people say the experience or that person that caused the hurt is dead to them.  Those are lies we tell ourselves to mask the pain. However, to heal, learn, and grow, we have to accept the experience.  Accept the part that hurt and search inside for lessons that it has taught you and forgive yourself and the person that hurt you.  No matter that experience, it becomes a part of you and who you have become.  You can only love and accept the total you when acknowledging the places of hurt and darkness and grow from them because those are the parts of the sum that make up you.

Looking at the parts

Felicia Smith

If you read my last blog you will understand when I say I am in a Saturday season of my life. I can’t go back and I don’t know what’s ahead so I have to live in this moment good, bad or indifferent. I have been through a lot the last year and half and it is not short of a miracle that I made it out. Most days I find myself reflecting. Reflecting on the journey and the purpose. What am I supposed to be learning? And the most important question why God called me for this journey. This morning I woke up heavy and tired and I pick up my devotional at work Jesus is Calling by Sarah Young and these words touch my spirit in a deep way.

You are on the path of my choosing.

In those short eight words God reminded me that he is still with me. He reminded that although I can’t see it resurrection day is coming. The revival of something great and amazing that I cannot comprehend. But for today, my Saturday season, I have to keep pressing and remember that I am on the path that he chose for me and it will work out for the good.

It’s almost Resurrection Day,

Felicia Smith